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I guess we need to be optimistic. That’s what I have been told since I can remember; okay I'm not a pessimist I promise. I was just told that I think too much, I remember when I was 14 my high school therapist told me that I just think too much. I was confused, I mean aren't kids supposed to be thinking about things. Are we not supposed to be looking inward trying to figure out who we are, where we want to go and what we want to become as people?

I would have thought so; I guess maybe having a wondering inquisitive mind at 14 is an issue.
I tried not to think so much, I even try now. I realize the difference now, if I think too much at my age I really start to realize that most things I was told growing up were bull crap.

Like I said I am not a pessimist, sure I believe that good things come to good people and that we can make our own choices in destiny in the future etc all that good jazz.

I guess I am just a bit bitter because I have realized that it doesn’t really matter what we are told when we are younger, sure life gets harder and if you don’t grab her by  the balls you might get screwed.
I have been screwed lately, partly my own fault.

Sure I realize this, I got in over my head fallowing my day dreams and thinking a bit too much about the future without having any real foundation for my dreams to grow on. I’m sure it happens to a lot of us, we get on this one thought track and we don't really take into considerations the other possibilities of "alternate realities" that may happen.

Sure my dreams crumbled in the last few weeks, I had hung my hopes to high an opportunity it turned out poorly and I was bitter for a while.

Certainly anyone would have been, I mean we make plans around our dreams and assumptions because we really try hard to make them happen.

I have learned that I need to make things happen for myself, I can't rely on other people to help me make the life I want. It’s about going out there and getting the life I want by creating my own roads there.
I know I have a long road ahead of me, the next few weeks, months and even years.

I guess that means it’s time for some positive thinking. I need to start writing down my goals and focusing on them daily to help myself achieve what I need. Starting with a vision board, yup you heard right a vision board. I’m going to get a cork board and I am going to post things on it, like job descriptions fitting the description of what I want to be doing. This will motivate me to work harder every day to achieve my goals... I guess some people would say that it’s just the fact that you see the vision board every day (whether you look at it or see it subconsciously) it will make you think of making better choices in your daily life to help you get to where you want to be. I need make my foundations stronger, out of brick instead of straw.

So let’s do this, let’s be optimistic about life! Sure I’m soon to be an unemployed over educated Canadian but I’m still good for something right? This is just all part of the journey I started a long time ago, where I keep looking inward to see what kind of person I want to be.

Lets think of happy things like Love...
Motivational thoughts to help me become the person I want to be, a more caring motivated individual that looks inward to see who I want to be.

Not the cranky bitter old hag that clings to assumptions.


Is it working yet?