I have a lot of experience with the students as I have been working with them for other the last year in some extent or the other. I am really happy to be working with them, I am really excited about showing them that Canada and that the city we are in has a lot to offer people.
I wont be getting paid for another two weeks, my student loan (extension) has not arrived yet. My bank account is in the - balance. I am really not feeling very chipper. I had to go grocery shopping at a discount store, something similar to the buck or two. Turns out they do offer a lot, but of course its all canned. I'm still not sure about the bread.. I haven't dared to try buying it from there. My son of course gets better quality food, we just went there to get stuff for "grown" up lunches and he got all the fresh stuff from the grocery store.
I have been told that if I go to school here and continue my higher education that I will be in so much debt I won't be able to live when I'm done. It is pretty much the same situation I am in now, I mean seriously I am in debt, getting deeper every day as I can't afford to pay my bills or eat fresh food. What will be the difference when I am out of school after another 4 years? I'll still be eating canned food but at least I will be a teacher and hopefully teaching. If I can't find work then what is the worst that will happen? I'll have to go to a food bank? Seriously... I have friends that are educated college and university degrees BOTH and they have no food in their cupboards or fridge. It looks like more and more of my generation may have to move back in with Mommy and Daddy when they are done school. Trust me no one wants to be 25 - 30 and move back in with Mom and Dad. Its harsh.
Seems no one takes me seriously because I am a student, they think of she is just a kid. How can I be a kid with 3 college diplomas, 1 university degree and a 7 year old? I have had real jobs, I am forced to take student jobs because they pay less and I'm over qualified for everything else that's offered. Do you think I chose jobs that pay minimum wage and 15 or less hours a week dealing with other peoples crap because its what I always wanted to do? No I can't stand the politics in some of these positions but it is experience and income. I just hope that when I am working I some how make someones day better by helping them out. DON'T get me wrong I love working with other students and I love doing administrative work, I would just like to feel respected when I do it. It is not the other students that generally lack respect, if you get my drift.
When I get a full time job I'm leaving school, I am tired of getting treated like crap. I think I need to step away from university for a bit, I have had so many bad experiences with my Business profs that I have become more jaded than I previously though. I guess this last year has been a cruddy one, a lot of bad experiences making me bitter. I want to be a teacher, but I feel that if I continue with my education I may become bitter and a bad teacher? If I stop and take a leave to work I can come back fresh... but I can't afford to take a break unless I get full time work. I can't afford to leave school and not work, I am basically living from student loan to loan as it is. THIS is with taking on work, tutoring etc... Is this right? Should people be stuck like this? I just don't know what to do any more!! ! ! !!
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